That's almost 4months now that i have done nothing at all...my so called job searching gone nowhere as predicted..i cannot believe i was going to carry on like this?? It was extremely idiotic of me...to let my dream fooled me into thinking that everything will JUST fall into place...i only listened to my parent because i know they always say what i want to hear, they are too overprotected... I know i have to take action if i want to be stronger and independent! These few days i have done a lot of thinking and moving to hk for a year was a gd idea to change me completely...my bf was right! I am shit scared but it has to be done or i will be nothing, useless for the rest of my life! I know that it will be outrageously tough and i will be beaten down many times but i am prepared for all of it. I have always been too uptight about how people thought of me and i will learn to let that go. I shouldnt care what other people thought of me and i shouldnt compare myself with others...i am me vessi and i am proud of who i am. Yes, maybe i am kind of stupid and slow someitmes and so forgetful also loves to eat but so what? That what make me, me...i bet if i wasnt the way i am...you all have nothing to laugh and joke about! I am not a bad person. I am grateful to have found a great friend that have always stuck by me no matter what and not afraid to slap me when i needed a slapping but is there to console me when i am sad. I really do appreciate your sincerity...=p I have been thinking if i haven't gotten the ticket already...i would have changed my mind but lucky i did. Its happened so fast that i still need time to adjust, it's such a big step. But i know that i will not regret it...not for a second. Relationships are the last things on my mind...i can only depend on myself, thats the best person to rely on...myself! | 
There is only a few months left before we all have to separate. It is such a saddening thought. Everyone probably stressing over their next steps...me no exception. 
Sooo ying ar!! Me want Mazda RX-8.